Re-Invent your self

There is so much turbulence around me and inside me that for the first time I have started reading spiritual books just to know the reason why life is being a bitch to me. They say that a man turns spritual only when he faces adversities, calamities, troubles and disappointments. Or if he is truly self enlightened from within. But i do realise that there will be always unhappiness around unless you try to connect with yourself and bring yourself to peace with gods will.

This year has been the most turbulent year of my small little life so far. Things are just not going the way I planned and I Just wish this year ends and theres a hope for a new beginning for me. I dont want to return to the shell which i have strived so hard to get out of. But i do have a feeling of Deja-VU. The same events in exact same manner have happened twice. WHO is to blame? Me or GOD? This is where I went wrong and I am in misery. No body can be blamed. I cannot punish myself or others for things which are not in our hands. I just to accept it as Gods will. And when you learn acceptance you learn to forgive and forget thats what I have discovered.

I have come across this great article about going into silence. I only wish i would have come across this earlier so maybe i would have lived a more fulfilling life away from Hatred, Jealousy and Impatience.

Just recently i have started meditation to calm my mind and divert my mind from the past and the negative thoughts. And today was just my second day with the help of 8 Minute Meditation - Quite Your Mind.Change Your Life. If i can silence my mind even for those 8 minutes without enforcing it I believe its a achievement. And i feel this is a perfect start for a restless, hyperactive and sensitive guy like me.

I have also made a resolve to start reading and writing again come what may. This is something which is me and i have disconnected for some reason or the other. Just my advice to you guys out there, Re-invent yourself, dont get stuck in this monotonous wheel of life.