IDENTITY

From past several days I been stalling writing my post telling myself I got nothing to write on. But today, I just couldn't sleep without writing this and removing it out from my conscious. Till now u might have known m too lazy for this kinda stuff until I get proper motivation. Of late I had been reading some stuff written by Indians. What I rite is nothing compared to these greats.

This is the thing which is wont let me sleep tonight. Why do humans always compare?
Why do we get intimidated? Why can't we accept the fact that one can't be perfect and there is always someone better out there. Lately I been getting intimidated is why cant I used hi-fundu words. Is it that my schooling has not been correct? Or am I weak in grammar. I been thinking n thinking what could be the reason.

I finally came to the conclusion that everyone can't be same. Someone is good at poetry, or someone is good at making laugh, someone is good at writing vague, someone is good at writing serious stuff. And people like me write stuff, I don't no what to categorize me into, well I guess rite things related to your innermost feelings. I remember one of friends was goin BOSTON and he had invited to his place n we had a great bash n he told us to take whatever we want. And I chose to take his books. I got, A LOVE STORY by Erich segal and JONATHAN LIVINGSTON SEAGULL by Richard bach. These two were the most amazing books I had ever read. Both can make u cry at the end. I guess that has a huge effect on me (though my friend's say I write like mills n boons which I never read in my life).

The point is I been searching my identity, the meaning, the purpose of my life. Because I don enjoy almost all oHindu hindu occasions except the holidays and the delicacies. Neither do I fit in with the friends and cousins I grew up. Neither do I feel m of this age n time. The only thing makes me sane and rooted is my better half. I seriously can't imagine what would have been the outcome of my wretched life if I wouldn't have met her. I feel completed and secure only because I have her and seriously I never had faith in god before I met her.

The only thing I ask god -Never let us apart. Amen